Monday, September 18, 2017

Dark, strange and beautiful

It's what I hear in most of my favourite songs - The Swan of Tuonela, Gnossienne, Strange Fruit, Oraison, Fire Walk with Me. You're trying to understand those strange feelings and that's beautiful.

Complexity deserves respect. Enchanting artists need time and space.

I've always been good at drawing but finding my own voice took 15 years. I wasn't even drawing during that time. I only had ideas for music and then one day in 2014 a new wax drawing and new feelings suddenly came out of me. I had become more experienced as a person after studying many things that had nothing to do with drawing. Developing this new technique and using wax crayons was just one part of it.

My love of things that are hard to explain deepened. I felt the strength and the force. I wasn't afraid of being different anymore after years of confusion, guilt and excuses.

Sunday, September 17, 2017

My worst nightmare

"Explain every step you take."

There's a gun to my head. Explain, explain, explain.

Might as well pull the trigger. I can't live like this.

I wish people would spend more energy on exploring interesting things without worrying. Without apologising. Without this crushing sense of emptiness.

Oppressive authorities are everywhere. Even sneaking up on you when you are alone.

The fact that we exist on this planet is a miracle. How would you express your gratitude?

Tuesday, September 12, 2017

Top 30 favourite B&W films

1924 Sherlock Jr.
1926 Faust
1928 La Passion de Jeanne d'Arc
1932 Vampyr
1932 Freaks
1932 The Old Dark House
1933 Duck Soup
1950 Rashomon
1951 Strangers on a Train
1954 La Strada
1955 Ordet
1955 Les Diaboliques
1960 Les Yeux sans visage
1960 La maschera del demonio
1960 Psycho
1961 The Innocents
1962 Carnival of Souls
1962 Cape Fear
1962 What Ever Happened to Baby Jane
1962 Lolita
1963 8½
1964 Dr. Strangelove
1964 Onibaba
1965 Repulsion
1968 Kuroneko
1968 Night of the Living Dead
1977 Eraserhead
1980 The Elephant Man
1989 Tetsuo
1994 Ed Wood

Favourite films top 50

Saturday, September 9, 2017

Irreplaceable dialogues between

Mystery and birth

Identities and models

Solitary discovery and the wisdom of others

Facts and emotions

Imagined points of view and actual points of view

Tasks and impulses