Monday, March 19, 2018
Sometimes I draw my own face but I don't draw self-portraits. I'm interested in the power of the single image and individual ideas.
I don't have an expressive face. Relying on its limited familiarity simply isn't enough. I have to experiment in different ways if I'm truly going to find out what I can do with my face.
Strange shapes that form a face go deep under your skin. You enter into a vivid world of possibilities instead of lifting something from a list of known facial expressions. These faces are not just frightening. They explore different aspects of my own personality and the behaviour I see around me.
Thursday, March 15, 2018
Finding the soul and humanity in other people is what makes the experience of sharing powerful. There's a reason why we associate eyes with the soul. There's so much in the simplicity of the eyes. It's one of the most difficult things to do when I'm drawing.
Detecting complexities, especially in simplicity, has always been essential to my soul. This doesn't mean that I'm always successful.
I miss things all the time, but it's no reason to feel like a failure. To me communication and exchange of ideas is not about fear. When people are afraid or in pain they are more likely to believe in mindless positivity or negativity. Things that lack complexity provide artificial gratification while concealing a real sickness.
The sense of worthlessness and nullity spreads in the blink of an eye. Depression, anxiety and self-pity distort and erase humanity. Things don't register and you feel completely alone. Small, miserable demons become the end of the world. You're trying too hard and you can't access the depth of experience. The power you lost becomes visible when you can empathically remember who you are.
Tuesday, March 13, 2018
This is the only altarpiece by Tove Jansson (creator of The Moomins) in Teuva, Finland. It is one of my childhood memories and one of the first artworks I saw. Together with the bleeding crucified Christ next to the altar, it suggested something enigmatic beyond religion.
Tove's only altarpiece
Monday, March 12, 2018
Drawing and music run in my family, yet I'm the only artist.
I grew up in the presence of a mysterious object. It was an engaging oil painting of a sunset at sea. Somehow I used to be fine with the fact that my father only made one painting. There may have been others but this was the one hanging on the wall saying "I can paint."
He was a welder who lost interest in painting. He didn't persist.
I remember my grandfather suddenly playing a melody on a keyboard. Someone else in the past had apparently played a mandolin. I always heard stories about skills but never about serious artists. They never talked about ideas. They never had the patience to develop a taste. You will develop a taste if you care and let it develop.
I want to experience the world in the form of exhilarating ideas.
I'm going to be the guy who actually does these things. That is my greatest dream. Just do. Just be.
I never wanted to give up and gutlessly announce "I can't do this all the time." I'm naturally going from one idea to the next. I feel like I'm adding something because I'm awake and embracing real challenges. This is why I feel less lonely and anxious in an indifferent world of trivial or mindlessly entertaining challenges.
I hardly ever get ideas from dreams, but I do all kinds of things unconsciously. It's not about waiting, it's about feeding my subconscious and connecting things. Most of the time ideas come in a flash. If I start something I will finish it without tedious planning. I've learned not to dismiss vague fragments. When you're more familiar with your subconscious you start losing the attachment to one goal. Instead of waiting for a perfect dream you start discovering and introducing timeless and dreamlike elements.
Saturday, March 10, 2018
La diva (from Come imparai ad amare le donne, 1966)
C'era una volta il West (from C'era una volta il West, 1968)
L'uomo dell'armonica (from C'era una volta il West, 1968)
Lontano (from Gott mit uns, 1969)
Come un madrigale (from Quattro mosche di velluto grigio, 1971)
Speranze di liberta (from Sacco e Vanzetti, 1970)
Giu la testa (from Giu la testa, 1971)
La bambola (from Veruschka, 1971)
La tarantola dal ventre nero (from La tarantola dal ventre nero, 1972)
Un uomo si e dimesso (from La tarantola dal ventre nero, 1972)
El primo baso (from Chi l'ha vista morire, 1972)
La citta si risveglia (from L'uccello dalle piume di cristallo, 1970)
Magia nera (from Una lucertola con la pelle di donna, 1971)
Che strano (from Una lucertola con la pelle di donna, 1971)
La vittima (from Macchie solari, 1974)
Preannuncio (from Macchie solari, 1974)
Tra sospiri e lamenti (from Drammi gotici, 1976)
Notte e misteri (from Gli occhi freddi della paura, 1971)
Evaporazioni (from Gli occhi freddi della paura, 1971)
Luna Canadese (from H2S, 1968)
Saturday, March 3, 2018
Monday, February 26, 2018
The Passion of Joan of Arc (1928), Vampyr (1932), The Word (1955)
Rear Window (1954), Vertigo (1958), Psycho (1960)
La Strada (1954), 8 1/2 (1963), Satyricon (1969)
2001: A Space Odyssey (1968), A Clockwork Orange (1971),
The Shining (1980)
Black Sabbath (1963), Blood and Black Lace (1964),
Kill, Baby, Kill (1966)
Repulsion (1965), Rosemary's Baby (1968), The Tenant (1976)
George A. Romero
Night of the Living Dead (1968), Dawn of the Dead (1978),
Day of the Dead (1985)
The Bird with the Crystal Plumage (1970), Deep Red (1975),
The Brood (1979), Videodrome (1983), The Fly (1986)
Eraserhead (1977), Twin Peaks (1990–91),
Twin Peaks: Fire Walk with Me (1992)
Sunday, February 25, 2018
Saturday, February 24, 2018
I'm not trying to be the next Edvard Munch, Käthe Kollwitz or Vincent van Gogh. Ideas are part of my own vitality and sanity. In order to feel alive I have to discover different ways to surprise myself. I'm not going to draw something that I can fully explain or copy something
Some people feel the need to apologise. They have one strange idea and they panic. I have always felt things deeply, but the true value of this eluded me for a long time. I also used to feel guilty because
I wanted to spend more time by myself. In a way I was missing who
I was. The world of ideas allows me to breathe. As an artist everything around me is for my own use.
I want to have ideas but I can't say I wanted to have these specific ideas. My drive is influenced by rediscovered childhood, emotional fantasies and fresh mixtures of bodily and environmental chemistries.
Monday, February 19, 2018
Sunday, February 18, 2018
This will simply frighten people.
I already know everything about what I do.
This will be easy.
I have to carefully plan or explain every step I take.
This will simply shock or impress.
No one should see this.
This will be my ultimate idea.
I don't have the freedom to fail.
This will obviously sell.
I only care about history or references.