Why am I doing this

Creative work is more fun than fun.

I feel less lonely and anxious.

I want to achieve variety and intensity within limitations.

I want to show you that I actually care about these things.

I am exploring and arriving at my own emotional truth.

I want to show you what is in my DNA.

My hunger allows me to do this no matter what.

Being surprised by useful knowledge feels great.

This is my second chance after my mental breakdown.

I am trying to understand feelings I can never fully understand.